4 IUI’s —> BFN
IVF —> 1st FET (surrogate DW, 2 excellent quality blastocysts) —> BFP but HCG fails to double
—> 2nd FET (surrogate DW, 2 excellent quality blastocysts) —> BFP but HCG fails to double
—> 3rd FET (my uterus, 1 excellent quality and 1 good quality blastocyst) —> BFP but no heartbeat seen
Is it my eggs? Is it the sperm? Is it the clinic? Is it DW’s uterus/immune system + bad luck during my transfer?
Having invested so much time and enough money to buy a nice car already, are we foolish to keep trying?
Do we bother with the last excellent quality blastocyst? Or do we start fresh and do a whole new round of IVF?
We are running out of time and hope.
Do we just come to terms with being childless, and hope that over time we approach it with less bitterness and more appreciation of freedom?
I am just having a really hard time understanding how we could possibly have a good outcome with stats like this.
Sorry for the negativity. I’m just trying to process it all, and I’m struggling to find hope among all of the shitty hands that we have been dealt.