Last year, this is where the major short listing happened, as we went from 11 embryos on day three to 8 embryos on day four.
Yesterday, I informed you that all fertilized embryos were still alive and kickin’. However, their grades weren’t all the same:
6 graded good
5 graded average
2 graded poor
I figured that we would probably have one or two less than last IVF make it to the day four compacted morula stage.
But I was wrong.
And I’m about to cry.
Of the 11 day three (good and average graded) embryos from yesterday….
FOUR were compacting.
How the hell did we go from 11 to 4?
Last year we went from 11 to 8!
I have made so many changes to try to produce better quality eggs (no evidence that my egg quality was a problem even) this time around, like:
– minimal exercise
– more sleep
– Chinese herbs
– no coffee
– less sugar
– more fat
The embryologist said, “Hopefully, we will have 1 or 2 to transfer tomorrow.”
Last year we had SEVEN blastocysts.
She said that the remaining embryos are still alive, and could just be slow growers. Some could become day 6 blastocysts. There are a couple that have a lot of fragmentation, so they are unlikely to progress further even though they are still alive. She didn’t really seem to want to carry on talking to me, or giving me details like she had in previous phone calls.
I guess no one likes to be the bearer of bad news.
Please please please universe, help all four of my morulas keep growing and thriving so that they can come home where they belong. Send love to the embryos who have fallen behind so that they too, have a fighting chance.
Friends, please send me hope, peace, and positivity, as I can feel my anxiety spiralling out of control already. I don’t want to relive the hell that was IVF#1. This is my chance to restore hope in the things out of my control. Thank you.
PS- my OHSS has gotten a bit worse again. There’s no pain now, but my weight is up 2lbs, my circumference up 2cm, and I drank more than I peed out yesterday.